I have been thinking about this statement lately. Mostly because I am not doing a very good job of living up to it. In the past I have used it with my teams when I was a TL with Teen Mania....don't "short time" I would tell them..."before you know it you will be on to the next day".
I would say that this statement is probably grounded biblically when you think about how it says "Don't worry for tomorrow, because Today has enough troubles of its own".
I was just talking to a friend and I said that I don't normally have a problem with this "short timing" or not being "present" where I am...but I think I could be wrong about that.....See I am interested in pschology and counseling, so I took a personality theories class about a year ago. In that class I had to take SEVERAL personality tests and to analyze my personality. One of those tests separated people into three pools (those who live in the past, the present, and the future). My test told me that I tend to live in the future and that I had done a fairly good job of keeping myself in the present, but that I would always have a war in that area.
When I truly think about it...that is true. I have spent the last several years of my life trying to LIVE FULLY today....to care about teens in Texas, to love and serve God in my today...at UPS, at Medstar, at Refuge, at Walmart. I look back and it worked for the most part....one day I said to Trisha " Don't you just feel like you have a BIGGER future...that something is waiting out there for you?" and she said "No, not really". This was the first time that I thought that this deep feeling that I have had all my life was unique. All I have wanted to do since I became a Christian at 12 years old, was to Glorify God with my life. I remember thinking after my first missions trip that I can't imagine doing anything else with my life than that which facilitates people KNOWING HIM. So, I have done that. Some in "small" ways and some in Big ways. Through the journey I have discovered more interests and talents and desires than I knew I had....but I see that for the first time in a long time there is a path that I am SURE about. I was careful to say this because I am so emotional sometimes....but as I have been back in the States I have come to realize that the last time I made a directional decision that I was 100% sure of, was when I went to LEE College. Lee was hard for the first semester and at that time I didn't doubt my choice, but I thought about changing it....HOWEVER, I never thought "man, I wish I had gone...to FSU or Baylor or stayed at home". I loved Lee...it was an extremely growing time...but it was FUN and I made some of the BEST friends I will ever have. God took me to Lee. I knew it then and I know it now. And just as he guided me there, through friends....I believe that he is guideing me to South Africa. Not because my heart burns for South Africans alone...but because my heart burns for ALL people to know HIM....and my heart burns to help those whose heart burns for the Besotho people.
So, now I need to be all here....not there....but here. Where is here? Good question. Right now, I need to go have fun for 4th of July, because here is TN with Roz, Peter and Andrew. Next week, here is TEXAS....the next week it is Florida.
Please pray that I will hear HIM clearly and obey HIM directly concerning the Timing.
Happy Independance Day!!!
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I can appreciate your difficulty actually. I share your "something bigger" feeling ... and as well have always had it. From at least the age of 12 anyway. I feel like my life is an instrument that the maker/musician takes slow and careful thought to place every pice together just right, and when assembled, to tune it just right, until the right moment when He sits down to play. When will I be "played?" I don't know. I suppose I could say that I live in the present with an eye to the future.
Amen to all the above. I have an incredibly difficult time being "present". I have forever been plagued with the feeling that there is always more, and being unable to pull my thoughts away from it. And there IS always more, God wants to take us from glory to glory. Not JUST to glory. For me I see the need to recognize where I am as part of His glory, knowing that it is preparation for the next glory and so on. This helps me focus more on where I am.
AUNT CHAR! I so agree. Most of the time when I have struggled with being "all there" is when I'm looking forward to what God has for me. I get so excited about what he is calling me to that I forget about now. Isn't it still fun to get excited about what He has for you--because we both know He's already doing AMAZING things through and in you! Hope to see you again soon!
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