Thank you for your support

I am in Alexandria, VA today and DC....Just hanging out, spending some time alone and with God, and seeing a few friends here and there. I was just sitting on the metro this morning thinking about how I feel called to "support" people...I am a natural counselor type...one that sometimes talks too much, but also still does a lot of listening. Anyway, I was thinking about this and how right now I feel so conflicted about my dad. I really love him and appreciate all that he has done for me. Besides helping to bring me into this world...he changed my diapers, always made sure I was well fed (maybe a little too well fed..sometimes :))and he always told me how much I was loved. He was for all intense purposes the best father a girl could have. He is human and he made mistakes....but as I remember it my dad ALWAYS supported me in any endeavor. He would tell me that I could do anything in the world that I wanted to.

This morning I was riding in to DC with my sister in law and I told her that I honestly believe that people love me. This sounds egotistical and of course, sometimes it is inaccurate. But for the most part because I feel that I way, I am more friendly and more open and therefore...it becomes true. I don't think I would have felt this way, if it weren't for my dad.

As you know, my dad is pretty sick. He is aging quickly, both physically and mentally. It is hard to watch the man that you always knew as the one to support you...need so much support. But I gladly do it. It is hard, though because I feel conflicted of where I need to be. If I could just clone myself and be two places at once...

Anyway, I just wanted to tell my dad...Thank you for your support...and I wanted to tell you..my faithful friends...Thank you.

I know that there isn't much you can say...except.."I am sorry"...but I know that you are praying for me, my dad, and my whole family. This is support that I can't even fathom.

It hit me today that I need to give it to God...easier said than done. It is my desire....so it is what my greatest prayer is. That My heavenly father...will support my earthly one...that Daddy would fix my daddy.