Be warned....this is a serious one ;)

Be warned….this is a serious one!

 

I was reading a friend’s blog tonight and I thought about how she is a great writer. It is funny because though she is one friend that actually live near, I learn more about her thoughts from her blog than I ever do in person. That might be a difference between extroverts and introverts….or maybe just between her and I !  We all did personality tests a few months ago and one of the things that struck me is that because of my personality I really need close connection with several people. This has got to be the single most difficult things for me there. Isn’t that funny? It isn’t the living conditions, the food, or the ministry…..it is personal interconnection! Part of me thinks that is just ridiculous!

 

When I was 11 I moved from the only house I had ever lived in, to an entirely different state. I had lived in that house in Virginia since I was 6 mos old…I left childhood friends, the first church I had ever gone to, and my brother. I remember when we first got to FL crying every day after school. Why did I cry? It was very difficult for me to make friends in FL. Everything was foreign to me. It was so difficult; I even missed the teasing that I got from my brother! I felt like no one understood me or even really liked me. Somehow I made it through those first two years and then all I wanted to do was to go to a school where no one knew me….funny huh? High School was great….I remember having some great friends and fun times there, though there was also plenty of drama. Things just continued to get better and better in my life in the area of friendships… I learned a lot and made many amazing friends. So…..

 

Twenty years later I can’t believe I have some of the same feelings…thanks to plenty of inner healing I am not crying every day….but I miss the inner connection with people that I have back in Texas and in various part of the US. I know… “it takes time”…I have heard that and I have told myself that. The fact of the matter is, that bit of knowledge doesn’t make it any easier for me.  I do know that it gets better….so I hang on. I know that in the end, people usually like me…some of my closest friends and I didn’t get a long at first. So, I hang onto that….and I grow…..I learn and I grow.