I just wanted to take a minute to tell you all what I have been thinking lately about leaving....I am very excited about this new stuff in my life. It really has put a new bounce in my step. It is not that I don't like my life now it is just that at 30 (I know I don't look like it, but I am), I feel like there has got to be MORE. As I have prayerfully started on this new journey, it feels right....and if it isn't, well, I will just come back :).
Really though, this has been my first adult "home"...I have lived here 7.5 years.... alot of time for this little lady. In those years I have really changed a lot, have made some great friends and have really built a family here. I love REFUGE. Yes, that is the name of my church, but really it is more than a church it is my family. As a single woman I have found that the verse "The Lord sets the lonely into families" to be VERY true. I have more families than any ONE person could wish for. I mean, not just people to have Thanksgiving with, but families who have seen all of my ugliness (especially my messy room) and still love me and picture a special future for me. My natural parents have always been that way, but to have 4 more sets of parents in that boat is...well, AMAZING. I am glad that I realize how unusual this is, becuase I don't want to take it for granted....to be honest though, I wish it wasn't that unusual. I believe strongly in community...real community...where we really KNOW eachother, TRUST eachother, GIVE and RECEIVE, work thorough the HURTS, enjoy the LAUGHS....that is where we are really the happiest....it is where I am the happiest. So, to leave my FAMILY here in Texas is no small decision. Some people see me at the GREAT traveler...and I love to Travel, but Traveling and MOVING are two different things indeed. To tell you the truth, I am a little scared. I get to start all over again...making new friends (not just casual friends..that is easy)...real friends...and I bet in that process I will see more areas in my heart that need to be HEALED...YEAH (only a little sarcastic).
Anyway, this post is really dedicated to my TEXAS family....to the Wenths, the Dykes, the Lindenbergers, and the Mortons. Thank you for sharing your lives with me. For laughing with me, crying with me, confronting me, correcting my English, encouraging my dreams, praying with me, FEEDING me ;), picking me up from the airport a trillion times, letting me borrow your cars......and for truly loving me. You have made a HUGE difference in my life and I hope that I can take what I have learned in this community and foster another one....and another...and another...as I go from here on to the next part of the journey that God has for me.
I am crying now...for those of you who know me well...I love to cry...so congratulations...we are really friends because you made me cry! :)
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