Rest, Repentance, Quiet, Trust....

I am having a bit of a hard time lately. To say it plainly, I have a few tough decisions ahead of me and I don't know what to do about them. While I was in Washington, I spent some time asking God what he wanted to say to me and there was a lot of evidence that led me to the bottom line of this scripture: "In rest and repentance is your salvation, in quiteness and trust is your strength"....

So, here I am with a job that is flexible, but not steady as far as money goes, a mound of debt since I started this business, a desire to minister in a more full time capacity in the area of prayer ministry and inner healing...an MBA... aging parents that need my assistance (and I want to spend more time with them)... and a church that is on the edge of revival. Unfortunately the church and my parents are in different states....if I reenter the FT business world in TX where the opportunities abound I will likely only have 2-3 weeks of vacation (this doesn't help me see my parents more), if I get a job where they are, I leave the only spiritual family that I know and see no opportunity for growing in the area of counseling ministry.

The title of my blog is the idealist...because that is what I am....most struggles I see as opportunities...and I know that there is an opportunity in here.... I am just at the analyze it stage and try to see how I can follow the Lord's lead....

I know it is prettier up there, no mater how hard it is to get there.....

I say that I need a direct word from the Lord, but then I doubt in my ability to hear...eek, what a mess.

So, in rest and repentance is my salvation...what does that mean? I get repentance and have been doing that...but what is rest? By nature I am LAZY....but busy at the same time. I woke up with a cold today...a sore throat...and I wondered if it was a call to REST and QUIET. So, I ramble on this blog to get some thoughts out there.

If anyone has a word of prophecy or encouragement, a scripture, or a prayer...I could use it.